Meri Dadi Maa

Not for anything so big, and it is not a big deal too. Life crossed a moment, and I wanted to keep it. So I am here.

Yesterday, I came to know from my sister that grandma is sick. She ate nothing since two days. She has fever as well and is completely on bed. She is not somebody healthy to sustain such a thing. She is very old, around 82 or may be more. Her health is discouraging. I feel that we are helpless, but she is fighting the odds.

She lives in Navada(Bihar) with one of my uncle. My father lives in Bokaro(Bihar). I called my father and asked him if he is going to meet her. Dadi must be treated by some good doctor, if not in Navada, than may be outside, may be in Patna for example. He said, "Sure". His voice was humble. He was sad to hear that. I also felt bad. Night, he caught a bus to Navada. My mother gave him company. It is not a good road, as we see in NCR. It is a bumpy ride and my father is also touching the retirement age of 60. It takes almost 10 hours to reach Navada. They decided to go. Such moments pump energy to our lives, we get inspiration.

Next day morning, I mean today, I called him and he gave a smiling news. Dadi is fine. She had her breakfast. She still reads without glasses and she could eat as still enough teeth are present. Fever is gone. I was so happy to hear that. Dad said, "She is very happy to know that Vijay(My dad) has come.". Son's presence is the cure for her. That is how mothers long for their children.

He visited her after 8 months.

I asked my father, "How are you feeling?". He said, "He is feeling good.". I know, and he knows better than me, being close to your mother is something very personal and delighting. She is fading away in terms of heath and age(Love and Affection has grown up with time :-) ). All we could wish is, may she lives at least a 100 years or more.

I couldn't stop myself from remembering those small instances, when she will protect us from any punishment announced by mummy or when she will give me 'Pakwans' or 'Gulab Jamuns' or 'a rupee or half' for ice creams or 'Sonpapdi'. Sometime she will give us these sweets without letting anybody know. Since we were in joint family, things were divided once made. So she will have to give it secretly. That time I didn't know what it meant. But in today's world, I see its meaning. A simple Love is not that common now a day. She is the best Dadi.

I do not remember an instance; even my father never mentioned that Dadi ever demanded anything from them. She had always been giving. She was not less than a princess at her time. Her father was a 'Zamindar', had a few villages under him, was treated like royal. In today's world if a person has little money, she/he gets all kind of ego. But here is she, a completely different, down to earth, giving personality.

[Above : A rare picture of Nani Maa (Left) and Dadi Maa (Right).

I have decided to visit her soon. May be somewhere close to Diwali or before.

My father gave the cell to Dadi and I talked to her, just few sentences. Her voice has same affection. I am missing her.

Ek khwaish choo lene ki

Saptah ka aakhiri din, shaam ka samay aur film. Ek Software Engineer ka koi aam din. Aise mein mere kisi dost ne Chaand ki yaad dila di, message kiya ' Chk out d moon 2day. Appears like a orange ball in d sky'.

Like a lazy python, I was no more than stagnant water. In a sudden, I ran to the terrace holding my mobile 5mp camera in my hand. I saw the sky, it was gloomy. A gloomy Saturday. I saw the moon. It was mysterious. I focused on it and zoomed to the maximum level, grabbed the picture. To my surprise that gloomy moon appeared like an orange or may be like Mars. I loved it. I thanked my friend.



Normally People do not like to talk about some of the most beautiful things which exist in this world. For sure they will admire high resolution wallpapers but no one will have a look on this beautiful phenomenon. People have HD cameras, but they have lost their vision.

Well it was a bit of surprise for me, somebody talking about moon to a person who spent his last night on terrace, admiring the moon that was playing hide and seek with his younger brothers, the clouds of course.

While milking the moment, I remembered my childhood. Hard to guess the year but it was a little cold night, can be October month. It was a full moon day. In October month, at my native place everyone plays with kites. I, with some of my cousin brothers decided to fly kites on full moon day. I always loved moon. In summer seasons, when there won't be electricity, I will sleep on the terrace; will count as many passing jets, rockets, airplanes, UFOs etc. So I had to spend many nights with stars and moon. I love kites. Even now I have one in my house :-)

Well full moon and kites. It was a complete package. Achanak se ek anonymous vichar mere hridaya mein aaya, socha aaj chaad choote hain(let’s touch the moon). That day, it was a big moon. So, patang udai, dheel diya, hawa bhi acchi thi. Everything was set. It was a good kite. With the winds, it was going straight to the east, where moon was slowly climbing the cloudy curly stairs to reach the sky. How far could I go, there is limit. Threads were not sufficient to touch the lovely moon. I was feeling sad. My kite was flying straight on top with a little of deviation while moon was still climbing up.

I observed, the breeze started getting slow. It reduced the tension of the thread, caused kite to come down slowly. I did not react. I was still thinking, will I be able to touch the moon? Then I saw it, I saw it for a few seconds. My kite was just on the moon. They both overlapped. They were facing each other. It was like kite was resting on a bright star. I got an ultimate feeling of touching the moon. I guess, I jumped to the sky. It was so nice. It was like a conversation went between me and moon " Hello Mr. Moon. Nice meeting you.”

In few seconds, kite went a little more down. The two were segregated. I pulled the thread to bring the kite near the moon. But it did not happen. Sometimes left, sometimes right or sometimes up or down. It never matched.
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Itni purani baat, achanak se mujhe yaad aa gai. Shyad main bhool gaya tha is baat ko. Par kahin seene mein dabi thi yah. Ek chote se message ne ise satah pe la diya. Thank you for that.

Zindagi aisi hi hai. Ham apni manzil ke ird-gird hote hain aur hame pata nahi hota. Har waqt haar jane ka dar kuch aise dimag pe chaya rahta hai ki manjil tak pahuchne ka vishwash dgmagata dikhta hai. Aise logo ki zindagi ek kati patang ki tarah lagti hai. In kati patangon ki bhi chand jaisi koi manjil rahi hogi. Par aaj iski koi manjil nahi. hawa ki tarah ise har koi kahin se bhi mod deta hai. Man aisa baawra hai, sochta hai agar kisi ki chhat pe gire toh shyad phir se udd sakoon is aakash mein apni manjil pane ko, warna dariya mein gire toh sagar se mil jana hai ya phir jhadiyon se ulajh kar, kat-phat kar roj aakash ko niharna hai, jahan uski manjil hai. Itne lachar ban gaye hain ham.

Ram ki Shakti pooja..

A typical Evening@IIIT-A
All those evenings are lost, I can recall them only in my reminiscence :(

A view, My alma Mater@Google earth

So what you say, hai na Lovely!!!
Love you IIIT-A :)

The whiteboard

Gamer's cubical special
(click to see whats so special on it..)
aakhir jeet sacchai ki hi honi hai, kyo loki urf aasani :P

21st may 2006

Today I am alone in this evergreen lab 2214.. This lab was never like

this. There were sound of laughters, there were people gaming, there

were people roaring, teasing, dancing, chatting, coding and the

things that can't be defined in words.. I am just staring those

tables, cubicals and empty chairs, now they are inedequate entity.














Hey this is the story of today only, 2 weeks b4 this lab was

arena of our all the stuffs that we did together in last 4 yeras..

On that diagonally rightmost chair Harhsa(kania) used to be

sleeping on two chairs with one leg hanging and just right of

him it used to be Jayant and a bunch of AOC lovers watching

AOC recorded game like movie displaying in a theater.. I

can bet it was the best time pass and we did it with gr8

passion, isn't it??
















Again opposite of Kania it was

Lokendra(Aasan hai) who used to be very much engaged with

his headphone, metallica song playing over it.. Besides him

its me who had nothing to do except keep pinging everybody

for nothing.. Just besides me Pony used to be watching

some movie or 'chooling(derived from chool, resemble to irking)'

someone and then Sarangi reading some 2500 page novel

in PDF format.. Far from me and digonally it used be

Ankit(lazo) with his download server window at one click

and another on some series like indian laughter challenge or

Indian idol or prison break etc.. Akhilesh computer was

also too far from me but my eyes are sharp enough and I















was able to spy what is he doing on his comp, either orkutting

or watching some old hindi movie or chatting(he did 90%

of time what I told you while using comp.).. Shobhit at

the corner of the lab, either shouting someones name not

for his own interest but the intercom phone was besides

his cube and it must be Ravi Gupta(JAB)(someone has

paused the game and jabda is asking why the game has

been paused??) .. Shobhit has only 2 works to do with

his comp, either listening and humming melodies of Lata,

Rafi, Kishor etc or watching movie.. In between a very

high volume sound (some of us have doubts whether

he laugh or roar) keep us reminding Sushant(chussi)















is in this lab and someone has cracked a joke for him.

He never find reasons to laugh.. 1st he laughs and then

the reasons comes, well no one knows why he has

cracked his smile.. How can I forget Rachit and

pappu, once they are on they are of no one..

"Sabki marni hai, sabki maregi" and in such a

way you can laugh only, ro toh nahi hi sakte ho lab

mein :D.. Where is Narendra Sing Rawat(Tau)??

Ohh he is in delai(Delhi) or watching movie..

What about Rajdeep SIngh Chaudhary(CD pasha),

playing aoc, yeah always.. Abhishek Tripathi(trips)

is busy with his mic with one hand covering his ear

for better hearing..

This lab is mine now.. All these chairs are mine and I

will sit on them.. This whole lab is mine and whereever

I will like I can put my comp.. I will sleep on three or







more chairs.. I can laugh, I can dance, now no one

will be watching me except echos of kania, loki,

chussi, lazo, jayant and all of them will keep filling

my heart and again I will be alone.. My roommate says

right "You came alone you will go alone"

but is he really right?? At some extent yes.. Infact YES!!